Where are You, Lord?

Where are You, Lord?

The wind blows, the storm rages, blowing me off my feet

You said you are the breath of life, but this, this takes my breath away, choking life out of me.
You said You are the Prince of Peace but all around screams FEAR, RUN, DEATH
Tumbling, shaking, reverberating

Where are You, Lord?
To the rock I run to find you
But the earth quakes beneath my feet, the rock quivers and shakes a shadow of the ache within my heart desperate for you
Where are You, Lord?
My heart, my heart consumed like fire burning.
Voices within without shouting, screaming, taunting, raging
I hear them, I see them
But where are You Lord?

You said you will never leave nor forsake
But to these turmoil I awake.
All I want is You.
Where are You Lord?

You Father, Creator, Sustainer
Life Changer, Pride Breaker
The same yesterday, now and forever
Worth, Purpose, Reason
Present in every season
Where are you Lord
You are the one I pray to
You can tell that I am nothing without you
Here I am, I pray to you about you, to know you, to sense you
To believe you more
To love you more
To obey you more
To give you more of my heart
Oh Lord search me
Know me
Investigate me
Examine me
Question me
Cleanse me
Heal me
Purify me
Sanctify me
Be pleased with me
Change me
Sustain me
Decrease me… Decrease me…. Decrease me…

Until there is no me left

Only You… Only You… Only You…
Only You are Holy
Are Worthy,
Are Joy
Are Strength
Are Peace
Are Escape
Are Rescue
Of what? To what? To whom can I compare you to?
You are my all things new
My place of refuge
My fortress our rest
You are Life and Death all at the Same time
You are Friend, Saviour, Lover, Redeemer
You are Truth
You transcend Old age and Youth
You are timeless, priceless, lightness in darkness, goodness, greatness, sinless
You are Peace in the Chaos
So above the wind and the waves, the quakes and the consuming fire
You are Highly exalted
And now I see you, I know you, I sense you, I feel you, I hear you…
The still small voice silencing the stormy sudden sound of the world quietening our souls.
Let Your Spirit come
Let Your Spirit reign
Let Your Spirit filter my heart, ushering me to your warm embrace.
Your Spirit of Love and Joy, of counsel and might, of wisdom and understanding, of knowledge and the fear of God.
Your Spirit of Praise

Humbly I bow for now I see that

This is where You are Lord!

Zion

Where are You Lord?

While they were prepping for the new year, setting goals, changing routines, writing To-dos and To-do-nots , giving the best tips to set goals and achieve them ‘cos this new year is ‘The Year’, just like the others were…. only for the 1st of January *slams head.

On this side of my world, you could vividly hear screams cos Jesus left me when I needed Him the most.
Like Avatar Roku, ‘When the world needed Him the most, He vanished.’

Human Condition

I fake my confidence and put it on like armor
Five-foot-nine so I try to stand a little taller
To measure up I got to work a little harder
It’s the human condition

Dear Me,

‘You’ve got to be strong’
‘You shouldn’t be seen crying’
‘Don’t show anyone how weak you are’
‘Never tell them how much their words and actions hurt you’
‘No one really knows how you feel, so why bother speak’
‘They’ll never understand what you say, it’s just plain gibberish’
‘If you speak, they’ll tell you to shut up because you’ll speak too much’

Made New

Boy, oh, Boy
Here they come again, uninvited, but sure they juggle the keys in their hands, deafening cackles following as they flow in their regalia.
Congratulations once again… For nothing!

Red

Red…

Not black not white not green not grey but
Red…
The colour that flows through our veins regardless of the hue of our skin
Red…
Symbol of life given, blood shed
Red…
Masking our hearts and minds, covering our eyes all we see is
Red…

It’s a new Month, a new day, a new week, a new half of the really long, long awaited and literally long year 2020.

And probably no matter how new it all is, you don’t feel so new. Perhaps you’ve ‘successfully’ carried over baggage and garbage and the weight of it all plunges you deeper in the mud.

Deeper you feel you go daily everyday.

Lift up your eyes, lift up your head to the hills from where your help comes from. Your help comes from the Lord the maker of heaven and earth. The one who said…

Come to me all of you who are tired from the heavy burden you have been forced to carry. I will give you rest. Accept my teaching. Learn from me. I am gentle and humble in spirit. And you will be able to get some rest. Yes, the teaching that I ask you to accept is easy. The load I give you to carry is light.
Matthew 11:28‭-‬30 ERV

A new thing Has indeed begun! It’s not over for you yet.

There is a void in man only God can fill.
There is A search in man that God alone is the answer.
There is a hunger and a thirst in man that only God’s presence can fully satisfy.

He wants you, He loves you, He calls you.

You may be lost as you grope around in the darkness of guilt, terrorised by the haunting sounds of fear and doubt, dirty, filthy, soaked in sin and dripping with hatred.

Welcome His light to shine on you, let His Love reach out to You and Let Him wash you in His blood.

There’s no darkness too thick His love can’t shine through

No Ditch too deep His Love can’t reach

No sin too filthy, His Blood can’t wash

Come as you are before the one who bore all shame, He will make you clean and whole again.

Zion💜

Down But Not Destroyed!

Falling Freely, 
Unweilding to be caged anymore
They pour forth without hindrance 
As I cover my face shamed
Head bowed, heavy from the weight I carried 
The god of the world mocks
'Hahaha, she's finally down', he says
And no one gives a second look at my teary face
Their eyes blinded by worry and self
Vision blurred, I also can't see past their facade 
Then You come...
 

Held Hostage!

 

Shackles and Chains
Fear, anxiety and Pain
Lord, reveal what holds my mind a slave
Show me what fear causes me to cave
Help me Face what Terrifies and makes me bleed
But not alone, with You who Strengtheneth me

I’d love to say with all boldness that I’m super excited and pumped to introduce a new category to the blog. But the truth is I’m scared, a nervous wreck. I suddenly become dizzy, my palms get sweaty, my pulse loses frequency and becomes fidgety everytime I want to put this up.

When the Going gets Tough, But You ain’t Tough.

The Insta in Instagram has become a dark reality and I got stuck in a dismal, lonely MeTube disguised as ‘Self-improvement’…

If ever you’re anything like me, you’ve gone hopping from one Coursera course to another Udemy course to an online Zoom meeting since the beginning of this lockdown, till your eyes turned red-sore, muscles numb and brain so saturated you began speaking in foreign languages.